maybe a heart ache
a heart sadness
but I'm doubtful it's
anything to do with veins and arteries
possibly a pulled muscle
or stress
but no shortness of breath
or pain in the arm
like you see in the movies
i've felt it before
i try and keep track
when i feel it
is it when i'm sad
stressed
lonely
angry
i wouldn't blame my heart
to ache once and awhile
it deserves to feel that way
the heart does not look
like the commercialized
red and symmetrical
heart we know
from the cards and candies
to me, the heart looks
icky and odd
something you can hold in your hand
but globular and dark purple
pumping blood
in and out
to the rest of your body
the place where i used to
place my hand on
during the pledge of allegiance
or the raising of the flag
haven't done that for awhile
not since i was a kid at least
is it sad because of our
upcoming parting ways?
is it angry because
of the untenable situation
with mom?
is it aching because
there seems so often to be
no relief in sight?
how did it feel when i ran
my first 5K
the last mile
the last 1/2 mile
the last 1/4 mile
was the hardest
i pushed my body
more than i ever had
and i thought if i die now
at least it would be for a
good cause
will finding a new love
help my heart
they say people have actually died
from a broken heart
i can believe it
but mine is not quite broken
more hurt and in need for
recovery and healing
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