Showing posts with label loss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label loss. Show all posts

Tuesday, February 9, 2016

When WE becomes ME

In block typeset letters, the word "we" is in gray metal

The WE is falling down the hill
as it falls the E turns circles as the W
rolls to try and catch up
sometimes it's EW and sometimes it's WE

What happens when a WE dissolves
and the W turns to an M
which then makes ME
from the plural to singular

It's been a WE situation for nearly 11 years
a rocky one but a good one too
I went from an I to a ME to a WE
But sometimes lost myself too

He would sometimes ask me
What order I put - me, him, and us
I would put us first, then, him, and me
ME last

I know better now
I know better that it has to be ME
Then, us
Then, him

He knew this already
And at times I was angry about
Him putting himself first
How dare he

I didn't want ME first
for him
but at least
put us first

I'm sad not to be a WE
I know there's a lot of social capital
that comes with a
WE

But I'm also just sad
not to have the spouse
and partner I thought I was going to have
for the rest of my life

As the letters continue to fall and roll
the WE, ME, EM, EW, WWWW, MMMM
EEEEEE
I hope they'll land softly and unbroken

Monday, August 24, 2015

But I Still Miss



His kiss good night
When he hears me pull
My lamp string

His kiss good bye
Which has been my morning
Wake up alarm

Snuggling on the couch
My head in his lap
His arm on my shoulder

Finding just the right position
Where we're both comfortable

Making sure I drink water
Eat fruit

I mourn these small
Losses
That sometimes don't feel small
But gigantic